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Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
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Writing will make me feel better
I am a dance major and I can not really tell you why.
Plus I can not double WTF!
I love it when Starbucks messes up my order because then they redo it and I get a free coffee coupon.
Edward Scissorhands makes me cry.
I want to be Violet form Lemony Snicket's.
I really do not like 80's music. Ex. in movies
We all have vises and I hate it went people point out yours.
I don't like to cry anymore. Which is suprising since all I have ever done is cry. I think now I just get mad and forget about it quickly.
I am much more independent now that I have to be. But I like it.
I have a room but I don't sleep in it.
I do not care what I look like but you can only imagine how many people here do.
I like wearing my dance cloths under my normal cloths when it is cold.
I look up to megan and Kera. They are so free willed.Ex. Megan. (this is a secret they don't kow this and they don't read my livejournal so shhh!).
I want to be a member of Pilobolus. Look them up at www.pilobolus.com
This lady Beccy (Rebecca) Jung came and tought a duet and I was casted, one of the best things to ever happen to me. Random side note. This lady had a sailors mouth.
I have a new found love for Fleece.
I love the color change in the trees in Oklahoma.
People from Oklahoma say that they have the best Mexican but they don't!
People from Texas say they have the best BBQ but they don't, Oklahoma does (RIBCRIB just to name one).
I don't think that drinking every night is healthy.
I hate dorms. You are stuffed in a building with hundreds of other people. It is like a old time getto. You get sick, everyone gets sick. I do not even want to think about the amount of bacteria I have in my room.
I am in a state of denile...
Ok feel better!
-Jackie
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| Time: | 12:55 pm. |
| Mood: |  angry. |
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I am so upset you have no IDEA!
The END
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Monday, October 30th, 2006
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The leaves are changing slowly here. In such a way that I have never seen before.
Things are fine......
I am tired
I miss my dog.... I hate mean, cruel people they need to die.
I know that I should not get stuck on it but it is a sad affair.
I miss my dad he turned 50 this Sat.
In his New Mid Life he went and bought a BMW.
I am listening to music. I have been doing that alot these days.
For halloween Bennett is a lepercon (spelling) and I am his pot of gold.
If anyone read this far let me know what you where are going to be.... thanks
-jackie
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Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
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I sat outside of the library today near the clock tower in the little garden. It was beautiful. I was in the shade with my thoughts.
Thoughts:
Fall is coming soon. You can
see it in the leaves. Not like
Houston where out of no where
BOOM there is no leaves on the trees.
What do I want to do with my
life. I have not really thought
about it very much since I
have been here because I have
been too busy.
So weird how fast life changes.
Last year at this time I was in
High School. It seems so far away.
How much I miss my best friend.
Maryland you are lucky to have him.
That was really all because I had to go to company which rocks my little socks. We are doing a festival next week-end. We are doing this dance to amazing grace(Ani)AMAZING!!! It is mixed with two other songs. I love it here.
One last thought. liberal thinking = Not Here
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Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
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| You Are 35 Years Old | 
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
It must be all the "Friends" I have been watching!
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if i were a month i would be: March in Houston
if i were a day of the week i would be: tuesday not bored yet but not tired.
if i were a time of the day i would be: 5:00 pm
if i were a planet i would be: Saturn
if i were a sea animal i would be: sea horse
if i were a direction i would be: north
if i were a piece of furniture i would be: stain glass table
if i were a historical figure i would be: Jackie O
if i were a liquid i would be: coffee
if i were a tree i would be: willow tree
if i were a tool i would be: a razar
if i were a flower/plant i would be: a orange rose
if i were a kind of weather i would be: briskly cool and partly cloudy
if i were a musical instrument i would be: a drum
if i were an animal i would be: kitten
if i were a color i would be: light green
if i were an emotion i would be: emotional!
if i were a fruit i would be: pear
if i were a sound i would be: ding dong
if i were an element i would be: neon
if i were a car i would be: suzie because then I would be the love of your life (BL)
if i were a movie, i would be directed by: ?
if i were a book, i would be written by: J.K. Rowling
if i were a food i would be: icecream
if i were a place i would be: bl bedroom
if i were a material i would be: silk
if i were a taste i would be: sweet
if i were a scent i would be: sweetpea
if i were an object i would be: a blanket
if i were a word i would be: bow
if i were a body part i would be: mouth
if i were a facial expression i would be: smiling
if i were a subject in school i would be: dance
if i were a number i would be: 2
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Friday, September 15th, 2006
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Today, so cool.
Master class with Paul Taylor.
one word. AMAZING!
I can not wait to see them this Sat.
I am starting to like the friends I am meeting here. They are a little diff. and a little older then what I am use to but I am getting use to it.
-Jacque
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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:11 am. |
| Mood: |  uncomfortable. | | Music: | air blowing from the air vent. |
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I am sitting in my empty room with my empty room mate and i can not fall asleep. I am just sitting here thinking about how different things use to be. How fast life changes. It makes me sad. I still miss home and my frinds and my relationships. Now though I feel like i am not even myself. who is this person? I don't think I like who I am. I know that is weird but i don't even know how I would want to be if I was not the way I am now.
I wish I had someone to talk to who would just listen. i have someone here but they are not awake so I guess I will try to closemy eyes and forget my troubles because really my troubles will not go away by thinking about them.
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Friday, September 1st, 2006
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I miss everything about home. How everything was the sidewalks, my drives, the layout, the school, my relationships, MY home, my cat, my summer, my dad.
Here I am in Norman. With nothing. I hate it more than anything i have even hated in my life. I have never felt so alone in my life. I thought it would be difforent but, things are not always how they seem. I am sure that I will warm up to things, I don't do change well. Everyone seems to be do the transition well, why can i not do it.
Most of all I miss my dad. I know it seems like i need to grow up and be independent. But the thing is, is that my dad gave that to me while i lived in houston. I could do whatever, whenever. So I am at a school where a lot of people have not gotten their freedom so they are enjoying it and taking full advantage of it, and going crazy. That is not me! So anyways my dad is the sweetest man he would do anything for me. If i ever lost him I don't know what I would do.
I am holding on to things i love. But they seem to not be very close and this is the sadest part maybe things will change. Maybe I will end up being happy!
Love always
Anyone feel free to call me I miss everyone!
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I am so sad.............
nothing new. just the same. come and gone what is the difference one must always go in circles how can anyone feel as though they are whole.
just want.... that is the problem with people they always want something wether it be to love, to feel wanted, to die, to read, ect. always people are doing something.
In Neglect
They leave us so to the way we took,
As two in whom them were proved mistaken,
That we sit sometimes in the wayside nook,
With michievous, vagrant, seraphic look,
And try if we cannot feel forsaken.
Robert Frost
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COME TO THE DANCE SENIOR RECITAL PREVIEW #2........
9:30 in the morning
Friday
Great hope to see you all there.
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Oh my this is so interesting... I am going to sleep after i post this though
my sun sign (zodiac) is in Aries
But my Ascendant sign is
Cancer Rising
You are a very sensitive person and very attached to familiar surroundings. When you encounter new people, you are friendly enough, but you won't talk about your inner feelings until you get to know them quite well. However, once you decide to trust someone, you trust him or her completely.
Where you live while you are young will always be important to you.
If you feel secure in yourself and self-confident, you can be a generous person, always willing to give of yourself.
In those areas in which you lack self-confidence, you have a serious problem. Your sensitivity makes it difficult for you to take criticism or harsh words from anyone, especially those whom you love. When you feel hurt, you might lash out or act out emotions.
There is so much more
I just thought that was interesting that explains way i am so emotional but also do not withdraw like persons who have a zodiac in Cancer.
You learn something new everyday and i plan on learning more about this tomarrow.
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i really want to figure out my moon sign i am about to go look it up on the enternet some how but before i did i just wanted to say:
I LOVE YOU BENNETT!
Tonight sucked but today could be much better. I think i am going to do something special for my loved one hopefully he doesn't read this before i do it.
tired but dying to know moon sign.
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YOu Know you are special.
There are so many things that i have messed up in my life.
I never really thought i messed things up but i do all the time.
I hate letting people down.
I hate letting myself down.
Gosh i want to be special.
I want to be the one and only.
AM i corupt.
ask why, but get angry when why is asked.?
the empore has no cloths, or does she or has she taken them all off.
I want to just be clothed and have my one and only.
I am not a whore.
to all of you who think i am, i am not.
I use to be provakative. But i hated that person.
Turn my cheek to her. walk away.
"other cheek with half a brain"
I have and i will aways stay way form corption.
I want to have the special and that is all.
I want less not more.
I want what i do to matter to others.
GOsh if only.....if only
don't pick it apart
things are not always what they seem.
I love my lover.
Beloved you are the only one I lust other.
special you are........special i will be.
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Thursday, April 20th, 2006
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Why does everything have to be so difficult. I don't understand i wish life was easy but it is not.
Random side note i love bennett and he makes me happy!
By birthday was very dramatic and it was good it started off bad and ended awsome. I found out alot about myself and other people that night very remarkable. I have been thinking and i have learned alot in the last year alot of stuff that i would never think i could learn. I have changed a lot as a person and i have realized my flaws.
I changed for me and i like the person that i am now.
If you don't like me that is your problem.
Now i am not saying that i am perfect becasue i don't think anyone can be perfect. I just think that i have realized what i don't like about myself and i am working hard to change.
<3 Jackie
I hope i get to hang out with Bennett after school
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| Time: | 11:34 am. |
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HEY it is my BIRTHDAY
Hey and do you know what else. MY Birthday suxs it could not have started any worse if i woke up in a dumpster with shit smeared all over my naked body. God nothing ever works for me i always seem to fu*k up i guess i am not very smart. That is certain. God i just hate that not even on the best of days dose my life work out. Is is just me or does someone else feel the same way.
I hope today gets better.
<3 jackie jay
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Saturday, April 15th, 2006
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You know that right when you think things might be getting good, they are not. Everything in my life sucks i just feel not very important to anyone or anything.
It is my Birthday week-end I have not friends that are planning anyhting with me. I don't have anything speial that i am doing. I look forward to nothing. I do not enjoy much and what i do enjoy is not always constant. Not to mention you always find out you are being deceived.
I know that i should be happy but the reason i am not happy is my own fault. So i don't know why i am bitching at all.
Right now i am stuck in this jail. I am just so ready to leave start a new. Maybe then i will mean something to someone. I am just being a downer but anyways! I hate all the work that i am getting dumpped on my head the last weeks of school so that the teachers can feel as though they have thaught us alot but the truth is that they haven't and they are making up for the stuff that they haven't been teaching us. MAKING it up to us. GEEEEE thanks.
I am just ready to leave.
<3 Jackie
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Tonight would be the second time i have seen the Theatre production and i would have to say i wish i could go every single night. I can not see it on Saturday because i have my birthday dinner to go to but i would go every night if it where not for that one night. I will be there every other night though. It is soooo funny and amazing. Not to mention that my boyfriend is soo good. I think he is so funny and he knows how to deliever jokes. The rest of the cast is reallly amazing as well but i thought i would brag on my boyfriend a little.
YOU all BETTER come and see it.
Here is a little something to provoke you to come........
You get to see my man in his boxers.
Now if i see anyone focusing on my mans package for too long i will have to come over to you personally and beat the shit at you.JOking a little. Ha. But i don't mind if you glance at the goods for a second so that you realize that my baby has a really built body and OTHER good aspects. WINK WINK haha but seriously don't be getting any ideas!
I am kidding kinda with most of that.
Oh and Bennett is getting really sick. He is getting really bad sore throat so if you see him limit your talking to him. I thik he should be on vocal rest so that he has a voice for the show.
I am so proud of the crew and Bennett good job guys.
<3 Me
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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
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You scored as Pisces. You get along best with the sign of Pisces. Although Pisceans can be very withdrawn, or hard to understand, they are extremely conscious individuals, and are very deep as well. Pisceans often have a very dry sense of humor. They are very mature (after all, they are the 'ELDERS of the Zodiac'), and are freakishly good at percieving the world around them, practically to the point of being 'psychic.' Few can understand the depths of these people, but the few who can remain close friends with Pisceans for a long time.
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Aquarius |
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75% |
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Cancer |
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70% |
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Scorpio |
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65% |
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Leo |
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65% |
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Gemini |
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55% |
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Libra |
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55% |
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Sagittarius |
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55% |
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Taurus |
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50% |
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Virgo |
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50% |
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Aries |
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Capricorn |
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35% | </td>
What sign of the Zodiac are you meant for?
created with QuizFarm.com | </tr> My scope is difforent. Ha oh well
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I am in dance and the lights just went out.
They came on but now that they where out for a while i do not have to dance. I needed to though.
EVERYONE COME TO THE DANCE CONCERT THURSDAY AND FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! 7:30
You can buy a ticket at the door or from ME!
Thanks
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indescribable.
okay.
rushed.
devious.
anxious.
creative.
enthralled.
pensive.
envious.